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Post by Esponja on Mar 3, 2021 2:33:09 GMT
First of all, a thank you to Figgles for sticking with me behind the scenes and Muttley and Andrew in bringing me to this forum.
‘I’ have been on this path for a while and often out of frustration of not getting ‘it’ I left it behind to make the dream better instead, which appeared to work to a certain degree.
However, the urge to know never quite left me alone. I had it intellectually. Became as conscious as one probably can without leaving the svp, but when the seeing finally became clear it was an ‘ohhhhhhhh’ moment. It was scary. I was alone with my phone listening to Sailor Bob on Facebook and constantly enquiring, a voice in my head telling me to keep going. I see now where the perceived block was which may or may not be useful for others or anyone teaching others. My mind subtley had me convinced that the observer of thoughts was listening to thought and believing them. I couldn’t crack who that was. The other night was a seeing through that, that only thought, empty of any meaning appears. The pointer of ‘where were you before you were born’ was extremely helpful too.
My mind was looking for ‘something’ but IT can not be found by the mind. You can not even label it, yet it exists. The closest I currently have is to call it ‘space’ but my mind imagines outerspace and that’s not it. It’s no-thing and within it everything appears.
There has been an intensity in holding onto this as the mind didn’t disappear, all the conditioning and personality is exactly how it was and it really doesn’t feel any different. I have to continuously say to myself ‘there’s only thought’ and that brings me back to the place of seeing.
There has also been an intense energy around wanting to be immersed in the non-dual knowledge to be able to let it sink in deeper somehow but realising too that that is more mind wanting it to be different or to make sense of the non-sense. What I am feeling is that the seeing/knowledge isn’t available unless I really sit and look deeply.
Now, I am trying to make sense of how to continue working with my clients as I work using l.o.a and subconscious belief reprogramming but seeing that this is within the dream is both helpful and unhelpful. Tricky to navigate. I have to operate out of both spaces and my clients are non non-dual clients- meet them where they are whilst helping them improve their dream.
Abe Hick’s teachings of alignment make sense. If anything, I think it’s all been over complicated from this new perspective. Just accept and love and give gratitude for what is, in the present now. However, it’s not enough because the mind is in lack and caught in survival and all of that takes monumental effort.
Am not too convinced that I am quite ‘done’ - simply because it often feels the same as before. Again, could be more mind stuff comparing to a fake expectation I previously held. Perhaps the conditioning needs to fall away or change but for now I’m observing it all. I keep reminding myself to stay in this truth, to be strong about it.
Appreciate any comments or observations .
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Post by Gopal on Mar 3, 2021 5:24:51 GMT
First of all, a thank you to Figgles for sticking with me behind the scenes and Muttley and Andrew in bringing me to this forum. ‘I’ have been on this path for a while and often out of frustration of not getting ‘it’ I left it behind to make the dream better instead, which appeared to work to a certain degree. However, the urge to know never quite left me alone. I had it intellectually. Became as conscious as one probably can without leaving the svp, but when the seeing finally became clear it was an ‘ohhhhhhhh’ moment. It was scary. I was alone with my phone listening to Sailor Bob on Facebook and constantly enquiring, a voice in my head telling me to keep going. I see now where the perceived block was which may or may not be useful for others or anyone teaching others. My mind subtley had me convinced that the observer of thoughts was listening to thought and believing them. I couldn’t crack who that was. The other night was a seeing through that, that only thought, empty of any meaning appears. The pointer of ‘where were you before you were born’ was extremely helpful too. My mind was looking for ‘something’ but IT can not be found by the mind. You can not even label it, yet it exists. The closest I currently have is to call it ‘space’ but my mind imagines outerspace and that’s not it. It’s no-thing and within it everything appears. There has been an intensity in holding onto this as the mind didn’t disappear, all the conditioning and personality is exactly how it was and it really doesn’t feel any different. I have to continuously say to myself ‘there’s only thought’ and that brings me back to the place of seeing. There has also been an intense energy around wanting to be immersed in the non-dual knowledge to be able to let it sink in deeper somehow but realising too that that is more mind wanting it to be different or to make sense of the non-sense. What I am feeling is that the seeing/knowledge isn’t available unless I really sit and look deeply. Now, I am trying to make sense of how to continue working with my clients as I work using l.o.a and subconscious belief reprogramming but seeing that this is within the dream is both helpful and unhelpful. Tricky to navigate. I have to operate out of both spaces and my clients are non non-dual clients- meet them where they are whilst helping them improve their dream. Abe Hick’s teachings of alignment make sense. If anything, I think it’s all been over complicated from this new perspective. Just accept and love and give gratitude for what is, in the present now. However, it’s not enough because the mind is in lack and caught in survival and all of that takes monumental effort. Am not too convinced that I am quite ‘done’ - simply because it often feels the same as before. Again, could be more mind stuff comparing to a fake expectation I previously held. Perhaps the conditioning needs to fall away or change but for now I’m observing it all. I keep reminding myself to stay in this truth, to be strong about it. Appreciate any comments or observations . Much love Improving the dream is the only problem I see! Not wanting anything other than what you have now really does the change but one can't pretend like one doesn't want anything while the strong want is in place. When one reaches to the place where he doesn't want any change in inner, outer reflect that change(may bring the desired reality which you have been longing for). |
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Post by Esponja on Mar 3, 2021 9:14:44 GMT
First of all, a thank you to Figgles for sticking with me behind the scenes and Muttley and Andrew in bringing me to this forum. ‘I’ have been on this path for a while and often out of frustration of not getting ‘it’ I left it behind to make the dream better instead, which appeared to work to a certain degree. However, the urge to know never quite left me alone. I had it intellectually. Became as conscious as one probably can without leaving the svp, but when the seeing finally became clear it was an ‘ohhhhhhhh’ moment. It was scary. I was alone with my phone listening to Sailor Bob on Facebook and constantly enquiring, a voice in my head telling me to keep going. I see now where the perceived block was which may or may not be useful for others or anyone teaching others. My mind subtley had me convinced that the observer of thoughts was listening to thought and believing them. I couldn’t crack who that was. The other night was a seeing through that, that only thought, empty of any meaning appears. The pointer of ‘where were you before you were born’ was extremely helpful too. My mind was looking for ‘something’ but IT can not be found by the mind. You can not even label it, yet it exists. The closest I currently have is to call it ‘space’ but my mind imagines outerspace and that’s not it. It’s no-thing and within it everything appears. There has been an intensity in holding onto this as the mind didn’t disappear, all the conditioning and personality is exactly how it was and it really doesn’t feel any different. I have to continuously say to myself ‘there’s only thought’ and that brings me back to the place of seeing. There has also been an intense energy around wanting to be immersed in the non-dual knowledge to be able to let it sink in deeper somehow but realising too that that is more mind wanting it to be different or to make sense of the non-sense. What I am feeling is that the seeing/knowledge isn’t available unless I really sit and look deeply. Now, I am trying to make sense of how to continue working with my clients as I work using l.o.a and subconscious belief reprogramming but seeing that this is within the dream is both helpful and unhelpful. Tricky to navigate. I have to operate out of both spaces and my clients are non non-dual clients- meet them where they are whilst helping them improve their dream. Abe Hick’s teachings of alignment make sense. If anything, I think it’s all been over complicated from this new perspective. Just accept and love and give gratitude for what is, in the present now. However, it’s not enough because the mind is in lack and caught in survival and all of that takes monumental effort. Am not too convinced that I am quite ‘done’ - simply because it often feels the same as before. Again, could be more mind stuff comparing to a fake expectation I previously held. Perhaps the conditioning needs to fall away or change but for now I’m observing it all. I keep reminding myself to stay in this truth, to be strong about it. Appreciate any comments or observations . Much love Improving the dream is the only problem I see! Not wanting anything other than what you have now really does the change but one can't pretend like one doesn't want anything while the strong want is in place. When one reaches to the place where he doesn't want any change in inner, outer reflect that change(may bring the desired reality which you have been longing for). Cool😎.. this is actually incredibly helpful. |
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Post by Gopal on Mar 3, 2021 10:52:30 GMT
First of all, a thank you to Figgles for sticking with me behind the scenes and Muttley and Andrew in bringing me to this forum. ‘I’ have been on this path for a while and often out of frustration of not getting ‘it’ I left it behind to make the dream better instead, which appeared to work to a certain degree. However, the urge to know never quite left me alone. I had it intellectually. Became as conscious as one probably can without leaving the svp, but when the seeing finally became clear it was an ‘ohhhhhhhh’ moment. It was scary. I was alone with my phone listening to Sailor Bob on Facebook and constantly enquiring, a voice in my head telling me to keep going. I see now where the perceived block was which may or may not be useful for others or anyone teaching others. My mind subtley had me convinced that the observer of thoughts was listening to thought and believing them. I couldn’t crack who that was. The other night was a seeing through that, that only thought, empty of any meaning appears. The pointer of ‘where were you before you were born’ was extremely helpful too. My mind was looking for ‘something’ but IT can not be found by the mind. You can not even label it, yet it exists. The closest I currently have is to call it ‘space’ but my mind imagines outerspace and that’s not it. It’s no-thing and within it everything appears. There has been an intensity in holding onto this as the mind didn’t disappear, all the conditioning and personality is exactly how it was and it really doesn’t feel any different. I have to continuously say to myself ‘there’s only thought’ and that brings me back to the place of seeing. There has also been an intense energy around wanting to be immersed in the non-dual knowledge to be able to let it sink in deeper somehow but realising too that that is more mind wanting it to be different or to make sense of the non-sense. What I am feeling is that the seeing/knowledge isn’t available unless I really sit and look deeply. Now , I am trying to make sense of how to continue working with my clients as I work using l.o.a and subconscious belief reprogramming but seeing that this is within the dream is both helpful and unhelpful. Tricky to navigate. I have to operate out of both spaces and my clients are non non-dual clients- meet them where they are whilst helping them improve their dream. Abe Hick’s teachings of alignment make sense. If anything, I think it’s all been over complicated from this new perspective. Just accept and love and give gratitude for what is, in the present now. However, it’s not enough because the mind is in lack and caught in survival and all of that takes monumental effort. Am not too convinced that I am quite ‘done’ - simply because it often feels the same as before. Again, could be more mind stuff comparing to a fake expectation I previously held. Perhaps the conditioning needs to fall away or change but for now I’m observing it all. I keep reminding myself to stay in this truth, to be strong about it. Appreciate any comments or observations . Much love How do you re-program other person's subconscious? What do you do? Is it a kind of professional work you are doing now? Is that your job? |
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Post by Esponja on Mar 3, 2021 11:46:24 GMT
First of all, a thank you to Figgles for sticking with me behind the scenes and Muttley and Andrew in bringing me to this forum. ‘I’ have been on this path for a while and often out of frustration of not getting ‘it’ I left it behind to make the dream better instead, which appeared to work to a certain degree. However, the urge to know never quite left me alone. I had it intellectually. Became as conscious as one probably can without leaving the svp, but when the seeing finally became clear it was an ‘ohhhhhhhh’ moment. It was scary. I was alone with my phone listening to Sailor Bob on Facebook and constantly enquiring, a voice in my head telling me to keep going. I see now where the perceived block was which may or may not be useful for others or anyone teaching others. My mind subtley had me convinced that the observer of thoughts was listening to thought and believing them. I couldn’t crack who that was. The other night was a seeing through that, that only thought, empty of any meaning appears. The pointer of ‘where were you before you were born’ was extremely helpful too. My mind was looking for ‘something’ but IT can not be found by the mind. You can not even label it, yet it exists. The closest I currently have is to call it ‘space’ but my mind imagines outerspace and that’s not it. It’s no-thing and within it everything appears. There has been an intensity in holding onto this as the mind didn’t disappear, all the conditioning and personality is exactly how it was and it really doesn’t feel any different. I have to continuously say to myself ‘there’s only thought’ and that brings me back to the place of seeing. There has also been an intense energy around wanting to be immersed in the non-dual knowledge to be able to let it sink in deeper somehow but realising too that that is more mind wanting it to be different or to make sense of the non-sense. What I am feeling is that the seeing/knowledge isn’t available unless I really sit and look deeply. Now , I am trying to make sense of how to continue working with my clients as I work using l.o.a and subconscious belief reprogramming but seeing that this is within the dream is both helpful and unhelpful. Tricky to navigate. I have to operate out of both spaces and my clients are non non-dual clients- meet them where they are whilst helping them improve their dream. Abe Hick’s teachings of alignment make sense. If anything, I think it’s all been over complicated from this new perspective. Just accept and love and give gratitude for what is, in the present now. However, it’s not enough because the mind is in lack and caught in survival and all of that takes monumental effort. Am not too convinced that I am quite ‘done’ - simply because it often feels the same as before. Again, could be more mind stuff comparing to a fake expectation I previously held. Perhaps the conditioning needs to fall away or change but for now I’m observing it all. I keep reminding myself to stay in this truth, to be strong about it. Appreciate any comments or observations . Much love How do you re-program other person's subconscious? What do you do? Is it a kind of professional work you are doing now? Is that your job? Yes, I use a modality called Psych-k. Dr Bruce Lipton references it in his book ‘biology of belief’. However, I also help clients see where the triggers are and heal them from the past. |
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Post by someNothing on Mar 3, 2021 12:44:40 GMT
First of all, a thank you to Figgles for sticking with me behind the scenes and Muttley and Andrew in bringing me to this forum. ‘I’ have been on this path for a while and often out of frustration of not getting ‘it’ I left it behind to make the dream better instead, which appeared to work to a certain degree. However, the urge to know never quite left me alone. I had it intellectually. Became as conscious as one probably can without leaving the svp, but when the seeing finally became clear it was an ‘ohhhhhhhh’ moment. It was scary. I was alone with my phone listening to Sailor Bob on Facebook and constantly enquiring, a voice in my head telling me to keep going. I see now where the perceived block was which may or may not be useful for others or anyone teaching others. My mind subtley had me convinced that the observer of thoughts was listening to thought and believing them. I couldn’t crack who that was. The other night was a seeing through that, that only thought, empty of any meaning appears. The pointer of ‘where were you before you were born’ was extremely helpful too. My mind was looking for ‘something’ but IT can not be found by the mind. You can not even label it, yet it exists. The closest I currently have is to call it ‘space’ but my mind imagines outerspace and that’s not it. It’s no-thing and within it everything appears. There has been an intensity in holding onto this as the mind didn’t disappear, all the conditioning and personality is exactly how it was and it really doesn’t feel any different. I have to continuously say to myself ‘there’s only thought’ and that brings me back to the place of seeing. There has also been an intense energy around wanting to be immersed in the non-dual knowledge to be able to let it sink in deeper somehow but realising too that that is more mind wanting it to be different or to make sense of the non-sense. What I am feeling is that the seeing/knowledge isn’t available unless I really sit and look deeply. Now, I am trying to make sense of how to continue working with my clients as I work using l.o.a and subconscious belief reprogramming but seeing that this is within the dream is both helpful and unhelpful. Tricky to navigate. I have to operate out of both spaces and my clients are non non-dual clients- meet them where they are whilst helping them improve their dream. Abe Hick’s teachings of alignment make sense. If anything, I think it’s all been over complicated from this new perspective. Just accept and love and give gratitude for what is, in the present now. However, it’s not enough because the mind is in lack and caught in survival and all of that takes monumental effort. Am not too convinced that I am quite ‘done’ - simply because it often feels the same as before. Again, could be more mind stuff comparing to a fake expectation I previously held. Perhaps the conditioning needs to fall away or change but for now I’m observing it all. I keep reminding myself to stay in this truth, to be strong about it. Appreciate any comments or observations . Much love Honest and refreshing stuff. Welcome back.
Yes, the mind tool will need to be reworked a bit to help it come to terms with its demotion. It can be an ornery and crafty lil bugga.  |
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Post by Esponja on Mar 3, 2021 12:57:07 GMT
First of all, a thank you to Figgles for sticking with me behind the scenes and Muttley and Andrew in bringing me to this forum. ‘I’ have been on this path for a while and often out of frustration of not getting ‘it’ I left it behind to make the dream better instead, which appeared to work to a certain degree. However, the urge to know never quite left me alone. I had it intellectually. Became as conscious as one probably can without leaving the svp, but when the seeing finally became clear it was an ‘ohhhhhhhh’ moment. It was scary. I was alone with my phone listening to Sailor Bob on Facebook and constantly enquiring, a voice in my head telling me to keep going. I see now where the perceived block was which may or may not be useful for others or anyone teaching others. My mind subtley had me convinced that the observer of thoughts was listening to thought and believing them. I couldn’t crack who that was. The other night was a seeing through that, that only thought, empty of any meaning appears. The pointer of ‘where were you before you were born’ was extremely helpful too. My mind was looking for ‘something’ but IT can not be found by the mind. You can not even label it, yet it exists. The closest I currently have is to call it ‘space’ but my mind imagines outerspace and that’s not it. It’s no-thing and within it everything appears. There has been an intensity in holding onto this as the mind didn’t disappear, all the conditioning and personality is exactly how it was and it really doesn’t feel any different. I have to continuously say to myself ‘there’s only thought’ and that brings me back to the place of seeing. There has also been an intense energy around wanting to be immersed in the non-dual knowledge to be able to let it sink in deeper somehow but realising too that that is more mind wanting it to be different or to make sense of the non-sense. What I am feeling is that the seeing/knowledge isn’t available unless I really sit and look deeply. Now, I am trying to make sense of how to continue working with my clients as I work using l.o.a and subconscious belief reprogramming but seeing that this is within the dream is both helpful and unhelpful. Tricky to navigate. I have to operate out of both spaces and my clients are non non-dual clients- meet them where they are whilst helping them improve their dream. Abe Hick’s teachings of alignment make sense. If anything, I think it’s all been over complicated from this new perspective. Just accept and love and give gratitude for what is, in the present now. However, it’s not enough because the mind is in lack and caught in survival and all of that takes monumental effort. Am not too convinced that I am quite ‘done’ - simply because it often feels the same as before. Again, could be more mind stuff comparing to a fake expectation I previously held. Perhaps the conditioning needs to fall away or change but for now I’m observing it all. I keep reminding myself to stay in this truth, to be strong about it. Appreciate any comments or observations . Much love Honest and refreshing stuff. Welcome back.
Yes, the mind tool will need to be reworked a bit to help it come to terms with its demotion. It can be an ornery and crafty lil bugga. I’d appreciate any help. Like I say, I have to constantly enquire at this stage. The connection feels incredibly weak and that I could easily loose it... |
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Post by Figgles on Mar 3, 2021 17:20:56 GMT
First of all, a thank you to Figgles for sticking with me behind the scenes and Muttley and Andrew in bringing me to this forum. ‘I’ have been on this path for a while and often out of frustration of not getting ‘it’ I left it behind to make the dream better instead, which appeared to work to a certain degree. However, the urge to know never quite left me alone. I had it intellectually. Became as conscious as one probably can without leaving the svp, but when the seeing finally became clear it was an ‘ohhhhhhhh’ moment. It was scary. I was alone with my phone listening to Sailor Bob on Facebook and constantly enquiring, a voice in my head telling me to keep going. I see now where the perceived block was which may or may not be useful for others or anyone teaching others. My mind subtley had me convinced that the observer of thoughts was listening to thought and believing them. I couldn’t crack who that was. The other night was a seeing through that, that only thought, empty of any meaning appears. The pointer of ‘where were you before you were born’ was extremely helpful too. My mind was looking for ‘something’ but IT can not be found by the mind. You can not even label it, yet it exists. The closest I currently have is to call it ‘space’ but my mind imagines outerspace and that’s not it. It’s no-thing and within it everything appears. There has been an intensity in holding onto this as the mind didn’t disappear, all the conditioning and personality is exactly how it was and it really doesn’t feel any different. I have to continuously say to myself ‘there’s only thought’ and that brings me back to the place of seeing. There has also been an intense energy around wanting to be immersed in the non-dual knowledge to be able to let it sink in deeper somehow but realising too that that is more mind wanting it to be different or to make sense of the non-sense. What I am feeling is that the seeing/knowledge isn’t available unless I really sit and look deeply. Now, I am trying to make sense of how to continue working with my clients as I work using l.o.a and subconscious belief reprogramming but seeing that this is within the dream is both helpful and unhelpful. Tricky to navigate. I have to operate out of both spaces and my clients are non non-dual clients- meet them where they are whilst helping them improve their dream. Abe Hick’s teachings of alignment make sense. If anything, I think it’s all been over complicated from this new perspective. Just accept and love and give gratitude for what is, in the present now. However, it’s not enough because the mind is in lack and caught in survival and all of that takes monumental effort. Am not too convinced that I am quite ‘done’ - simply because it often feels the same as before. Again, could be more mind stuff comparing to a fake expectation I previously held. Perhaps the conditioning needs to fall away or change but for now I’m observing it all. I keep reminding myself to stay in this truth, to be strong about it. Appreciate any comments or observations . Much love Improving the dream is the only problem I see! Not wanting anything other than what you have now really does the change but one can't pretend like one doesn't want anything while the strong want is in place. When one reaches to the place where he doesn't want any change in inner, outer reflect that change(may bring the desired reality which you have been longing for). Improvement is just an in the dream facet. There is nothing inherently problematic about an intent to improve a present situation. The very experience of movement forward as the dream of life unfolds, has the idea of improvement, growth, expansion, inherent to it. Again, there needs to be an understanding here for the difference between "fundamental acceptance/allowance," vs. relative preferences/interests/likes-dislikes. We are currently doing some cosmetic renos to our home. I am having a ball, re-imagining decor, shifting furniture about, creating a whole new and "improved" look. I don't have to "hate" the current condition of my home to want/intent for something new, different and improved. There was a point where there was some strong consternation as to how certain furniture pieces would/could fit...with it, a strong desire to figure it out, perhaps a bit of frustration you could say. And then my daughter presented me with the solution; She'd done up the room on computer and configured all the ways the furniture could be arranged...it was amazing...lol...haven't stopped talking about the amazing technology! Anyway, just an example of how "improving the dream" need not be problematic at all. & how sometimes, an arising dilemma or problem of sorts can actually be exciting and fun. In short, the 'intent/interest' for improvement/change, is built in to the dream itself. So long as the dream continues to arise, ideas about expansion, growth, improvement (movement forward) will be part of that. Your entire view about this hinges upon the fact that you want to be able to control how the dream unfolds, and you think the means to that is to somehow stop caring about how the dream unfolds...to somehow stop being interested in improvement. |
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Post by someNothing on Mar 3, 2021 23:01:24 GMT
Honest and refreshing stuff. Welcome back.
Yes, the mind tool will need to be reworked a bit to help it come to terms with its demotion. It can be an ornery and crafty lil bugga. I’d appreciate any help. Like I say, I have to constantly enquire at this stage. The connection feels incredibly weak and that I could easily loose it... We're used to comprehending and/or figuring things out with our minds. We're used to potentially losing things we've "learned/attained/earned/found/etc". When one is waking up or has had some taste of Being or a very distinct realization, it seems like a connection or some new understanding has been made, and we begin to play stories about it, what it means, etc.This conditioning will naturally give rise to a fear of sorts... in the mind. Notice that when such stories, conclusions, or fear arise, one can begin to go unconscious, getting pulled back into the limitations of the unconscious beliefs/patterns, however genuine they may seem to be. It's natural to do so, but you seem to prefer stabilizing in the Realization of What Is, has always been and always will be Here/Now.
It's likely to get messy, so be cool for now. Take time outs to just settle into Presence throughout the day. Keep it simple. Draw on wisdom within.
Peacely
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Post by Figgles on Mar 3, 2021 23:39:05 GMT
First of all, a thank you to Figgles for sticking with me behind the scenes and Muttley and Andrew in bringing me to this forum. ‘I’ have been on this path for a while and often out of frustration of not getting ‘it’ I left it behind to make the dream better instead, which appeared to work to a certain degree. However, the urge to know never quite left me alone. I had it intellectually. Became as conscious as one probably can without leaving the svp, but when the seeing finally became clear it was an ‘ohhhhhhhh’ moment. It was scary. I was alone with my phone listening to Sailor Bob on Facebook and constantly enquiring, a voice in my head telling me to keep going. I see now where the perceived block was which may or may not be useful for others or anyone teaching others. My mind subtley had me convinced that the observer of thoughts was listening to thought and believing them. I couldn’t crack who that was. The other night was a seeing through that, that only thought, empty of any meaning appears. The pointer of ‘where were you before you were born’ was extremely helpful too. My mind was looking for ‘something’ but IT can not be found by the mind. You can not even label it, yet it exists. The closest I currently have is to call it ‘space’ but my mind imagines outerspace and that’s not it. It’s no-thing and within it everything appears. There has been an intensity in holding onto this as the mind didn’t disappear, all the conditioning and personality is exactly how it was and it really doesn’t feel any different. I have to continuously say to myself ‘there’s only thought’ and that brings me back to the place of seeing. There has also been an intense energy around wanting to be immersed in the non-dual knowledge to be able to let it sink in deeper somehow but realising too that that is more mind wanting it to be different or to make sense of the non-sense. What I am feeling is that the seeing/knowledge isn’t available unless I really sit and look deeply. Now, I am trying to make sense of how to continue working with my clients as I work using l.o.a and subconscious belief reprogramming but seeing that this is within the dream is both helpful and unhelpful. Tricky to navigate. I have to operate out of both spaces and my clients are non non-dual clients- meet them where they are whilst helping them improve their dream. Abe Hick’s teachings of alignment make sense. If anything, I think it’s all been over complicated from this new perspective. Just accept and love and give gratitude for what is, in the present now. However, it’s not enough because the mind is in lack and caught in survival and all of that takes monumental effort. Am not too convinced that I am quite ‘done’ - simply because it often feels the same as before. Again, could be more mind stuff comparing to a fake expectation I previously held. Perhaps the conditioning needs to fall away or change but for now I’m observing it all. I keep reminding myself to stay in this truth, to be strong about it. Appreciate any comments or observations . Much love Honest and refreshing stuff. Welcome back. Yes, the mind tool will need to be reworked a bit to help it come to terms with its demotion. It can be an ornery and crafty lil bugga. Perfectly put. |
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