Post by Figgles on Feb 22, 2024 5:02:25 GMT
It's quite funny, this idea somewhat served as an experiential 'cog in the wheel' in the apparent, sequential unfolding of 'my awakening.'
As an artist, there was a strong drive to try to artistically express the insights that arose. For several years, I'd been refining in my mind an artfully depicted "model" of sorts, of my vision of underlying reality/Truth. It resembled a large glowing orb in center canvas, with tentacle-like connectors extending from it, smaller, different looking orbs attached to them, and then from those, yet another set of extending tentacle-like extending cords, with yet smaller, and different looking orbs attached to those. (Pretty much the 3 layer cake of "person/higher self/impersonal Source" model).
When I finally sat down to begin the actual putting paint to canvas.....I painted in the large, glowing, "main" orb, and then started in with the "attaching" cords/tentacles, all the creative juice/interest behind the project, just went up in smoke.....it was clear; those "tentacle/cord" thingies that attached the smaller orbs to the larger one, even the first set, were clear and evidently revealed in that moment to be, what all those Nonduality teachers/gurus were referencing as "fundamental separation."
And some will say, 'see, that proves there are bridges to Truth within experience,' to which I will counter; The idea itself of entities that are connected to Source, thereby "not separate," was not itself the cause of the realization/seeing through....rather, the seeing through happened in tandem with a shift in locus of seeing that "revealed" my model to be bogus.
As an artist, there was a strong drive to try to artistically express the insights that arose. For several years, I'd been refining in my mind an artfully depicted "model" of sorts, of my vision of underlying reality/Truth. It resembled a large glowing orb in center canvas, with tentacle-like connectors extending from it, smaller, different looking orbs attached to them, and then from those, yet another set of extending tentacle-like extending cords, with yet smaller, and different looking orbs attached to those. (Pretty much the 3 layer cake of "person/higher self/impersonal Source" model).
When I finally sat down to begin the actual putting paint to canvas.....I painted in the large, glowing, "main" orb, and then started in with the "attaching" cords/tentacles, all the creative juice/interest behind the project, just went up in smoke.....it was clear; those "tentacle/cord" thingies that attached the smaller orbs to the larger one, even the first set, were clear and evidently revealed in that moment to be, what all those Nonduality teachers/gurus were referencing as "fundamental separation."
And some will say, 'see, that proves there are bridges to Truth within experience,' to which I will counter; The idea itself of entities that are connected to Source, thereby "not separate," was not itself the cause of the realization/seeing through....rather, the seeing through happened in tandem with a shift in locus of seeing that "revealed" my model to be bogus.